An invitation to see the world through my mind's eye

So... you're here to read what I wrote. Great! I have been contemplating starting a blog for a while, but I have so many things that I would like to say I thought that it would be difficult to have a blog with focus. No one wants to read thoughts that are all over the place, so I'll try my best not to do that. I am sure that with time the blog will develop into what I hope for it to become. Until then, I (hopefully with your help) will navigate my way through these unfamiliar waters. Be patient with me :) 


For now the blog is intended to be the world  as I view it. I have neither the time nor patience to write about every single thing, but I will touch on my passions and pleasures. Things that I come across in life that capture my interest and my attention. If I am discussing it then it is something that I think is worth sharing. I put many of my thoughts into poetry and prose so from time to time there will be a few pieces as well. 


So welcome to the journey that is my life.      

~~~ Happiness is a journey not a destination~~~

MY MIND'S EYE

In my mind’s eye I see things that could be

And things that can never be

I see the flight of beautiful things

And the death of things that come crashing down with such force, that not only does the earth shake

but the heaven’s wail, time stands still and heart’s break

Beautiful things though my mind can see

Never really seem to happen to me

Always so close but yet oh so far

A piercing reality and quite visible scar

Hearts mends, minds change

But some things forever remain the same

Not a reality I wanted to see

But quite the reality I thought it would be

Holding on to the things we believe so dear

For not more than an unsubstantiated fear

One can’t be one that now is none

One is one! And from that two or three can spawn

No understanding of this yet has been made

Not for lack of wanting but for lack of faith

A faith in a faith of her with no faith

With a want of a want of her want

All the dreams in her mind

Now all must subside

For the lack of what’s wanted is real

Hold on,

So you mean to tell me this all was for naught?

All was for nothing, all was a crock?

No!

This all was for something, all was for love

All was for his smile all because I could

Though things aren’t quite what I wanted them to be

There’s still lots of love surrounding me

I’m no longer hoping, or waiting or wanting

But living, and loving my smiling face undaunted

Not wanting to revert behind the wall of illusions

The wall of abuse and the wall of refusal

From this I grow

Taller and stronger and bigger and longer

More into the woman I want to become

I see her in the distance not too far away

Standing and waiting for me, but not today

I’m not ready but hopeful that soon I will be

My mind’s eye can see her staring at me

She loves unconditionally without and fear,

Not afraid to love her love, not afraid of tears

She’s stronger, and calmer and better than me

All this, oh all this, my mind’s eye can see

She never allows one to dampen her spirits

Never allows anyone to hinder her limits

Her boundaries are endless no boundary in sight

She loves every creature with all of her might

She stands proudly unguarded and proudly ALIVE

Proud of her mistakes and proud of her strides

She passionately delivers herself to outstanding places bounding in wealth

She mothers her children with joy, love and care

She molds their weak hearts, their minds taught to dare

She singly stands a beacon of pride

A vision of hope to each young, girl child

She tall as a model of a black woman stands

Bending to no other person’s demands

She with graceful features, confidence exudes

She smiles as an answer to questions meant to hurt

And isn’t afraid to heist up her skirt

She defends family in friends with mascular vengeance

She achieves all goals she wants to accomplish

THEN,

My mind’s eye sees her drawing closer each day

Not today, not tomorrow but soon I shall say

That woman is ME

The pride gladly I’ll show

My mind’s eye allowed me this always to know

My being evolved to this woman so meek

My being evolved and this woman is ME

My mind’s eye as always many things show

But my mind’s eye has always helped me to grow

So this too shall pass

And lessons it’s taught me

Has helped in the evolution to true ME

I’m molded by actions of me and of others

Molded by actions of friends, family and lovers

Shaped to a woman remarkable to see

Shaped to an outstanding version of me!

So pain be my chisel

And joy be my kiln

Laughs be my potter’s wheel

Powered by my will

Tears be my glaze

And smiles be the embers

Memories of both happiness and aches I’ll remember

Gradual shaping soon coming to end

Reveling true being, all love to defend

In thoughts, it is blurry and too far to see

But my mind’s eye sees it coming as clear as can be.